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One Liter of Tears 　１　リットル　の　涙　

This story is about a girl named Aya who suffered from an incurable disease, but lived life to the fullest until her death at 25. The original story is based on the diary Aya kept writing until she could no longer hold a pen. Aya had lived with hope for the future from the past 25 years. She was a really tough girl before she die. Her mum is really sad, she always read Aya’s diary, cherish the memory of her daughter.

People write diary to express their emotion, to remember important things and to record the way you growth. Aya's diary write everyday she fight with this disease not in the sad way. In the last few month of her life,she change her family her friend and classmate.Read Aya's diary is like read her story and her mind. After read the diary, her mum start to write own diary.

This is a beautiful morning, the sun is very bright, after Aya’s mother read all her diary,she start to write the first letter to Aya.

DAY 1

“Read or not, some day it will all come to an end. There will be no more sunrises, no days, no hours or minutes. All the things you collected, whether treasured or forgotten, will pass to someone else.

Your wealth, fame and temporal power will shrivel to irrelevance. It will not matter what you owned or what you were owed.

Your grudges, resentments, frustrations, and jealousies will finally disappear.

So, too, your hopes, ambitions, plans, and to--do lists will all expire. The wins and losses that once seemed so important will fade away.

I dont want to change any thing in your room,just too afraid to totally lose you.

DAY30

“Aya, mum miss you so much, you gave to us integrity and courage, Mum and Dad are so proud of you. Maybe the more hurt and pain you have gone through in your short life, the stronger and more beautiful your heart will be. There is no Aya’s day we are very lonely, sometime mum and dad do not know where are we heading?”

“Aya when you left here, this world is changing a lot. we spend more, but have less; we buy more but enjoy less.Some thing we keep on persuaing but can not searching, that is you.

Now we have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degree, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness.

Now we talk too much , love too seldom, and hate too often . we’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life; we’ve added years to life, not life to years.

We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes, but lower morals.

We build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication; we’ve become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are the days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but more broken homes. We should think about it , we pour ourselves more into work than to our family, an unwise investment indeed.”

It is so hard to find a ragelion that you can believe in. I read your dairy over and over, think about you in the early morning and quite evening. Every time I can learn more from it. In you short life, i give you a limited love, i hope to love you one more time, cook for you one more time, talk to you one more time.

DAY96

It won’t matter where you came from, or on what side of the tracks you lived.

So what will matter? How will the value of your days be measured?

What will matter is not what you bought, but what you built; not what you got, but what you gave.

Choose to live a kind of life that matters.

Sometimes, i think it is not fair that you have a such short life. When you counted the days you left, so many people wasting their time and energy in their lifetime. Why my lovely daughter has such serious disease. Is that my fault? You never though in this way. I should be stronger and accept the truth that you have gone.

DAY126

“Aya before you go, Mum did not take care of you properly. Mum understood the family is so important for me now after you gone. Aya, can you hear me ,Mum and Dad really want you back.”

“Aya, you did not have wholeness life, also I do not have wholeness life too.” But there is a wholeness about the person who has come to terms with his limitations, who has been brave enough to let go of his unrealistic dreams and not feel like a failure for doing so.

There is a wholeness about the man or woman who has learned that he or she is strong enough to go through a tragedy and survive, she can lose someone and still feel like a complete person.”

“Aya, our life is not perfect, but we had laughing together, crying together , this was enough. we love you so much my daughter.

If we are brave enough to love, strong enough to rejoice in another’s happiness, and wise enough to know there is enough love to go around for us all, then we can achieve a fulfillment that no other living creature will ever know.”

Day 316

“Every time when i confused , i read your dairy and it helps a lots.Time goes fast, you have already left us for a long time, this is my last dairy .But not the last time i will think about you. I hope you don' t mind, i meet editor days ago. He want to publish your dairy to encourage other people, especially, the young generation. The way you struggle with life and live happily in the last few days is really a good example. I really miss and want to remember you in this way. Instead of crying, I will smile and read your dairy everyday.

I love you. As a mom, i didn't no support you enough, taught you enough.But you always being a strong girl fight with the disease. From now no more tears,no more sadness, I will enjoy the life in the same way as you did.”